A long overdue post …


3 Days old

They say that in the newborn phase, the first six weeks or so fly past while you merrily wallow in the punch-drunk baby love haze.  That is also clearly true when one turns five! Happy 5th (and six weeks) birthday Carrie-bear!

6 Weeks Old

6 Weeks Old

Baby girl,

Now you are five! A full hand, a whole school-week, five little monkeys jumping on the bed!

It’s crazy how fast the time has gone, and to quote a line from one of my favourite songs: “The future disappears into memory, With only a moment between.” Tragically, the mind starts to file away the little memories, the fleeting moments, like the newborn smell, or the sound of that delicious first laugh, but thankfully, we make new memories every day. And every now and then, prompted by a familiar smell or sound, a first moment surfaces from the archives of my mind, and I am graced with memories of sweet little you. You have become a big girl, almost overnight, with hardly a trace of your babyhood left in your face or body.

You love to sing the A,B,C song, so here is an alphabetical list of things for your fifth birthday:

A – Apples: You love to eat apples, and will often help yourself to one out of the bottom of the fridge. You don’t like them cut up into pieces, but you do require the stalk to be removed!

B – Bears and bunnies: Your collection of bears and bunnies could rival the local Hamleys! Your bed is literally covered in fluffy creatures. Your favourites include Cuddle-bear (which was actually your first bear ever), Curly-bear, Bon-bon, Bunny, Big-bunny and Claire-bear, to name a few. You take turns to cuddle with each bear and / or bunny every night, and make sure that no-one ever gets left out.

C – Caris: You already know how to write your name, and take great pride in showing me your latest artworks with your name written in the corner. You also like to tell me, whenever you see a “C”, that C is for Caris, and Chloe (Your best friend).

D – Dance: You love to dance! This year you started Hip-hop classes for the first time, and it was definitely love at first sight. You love to wiggle and twirl, preferably in a full circle skirt!


Dancing Queen

E – Elephant: You made a beautiful picture of elephant at school, with big grey floppy ears and you were apparently the only child in the class that made a crinkly trunk, clever girl!

F – Flowers: You love to pick flowers, especially the pink camellia’s in the drive-way.

G – Gary: You love your Daddy very much! One of your favourite games to play is The Teacher Game, in which Daddy gets to be a student, and you call him GARY! in a bossy tone.

H – Holiday: You absolutely loved our holiday in Mauritius this year, and tried everything from archery, to tennis, to the trapeze. You even participated in the mini-club show (twice) and performed like a superstar!

Mini Club Show

Mini Club Show



I – Ice-cream: Your love of ice-cream continues, especially chocolate in a pink cone.

J – Jekyll and Hyde: Ok, you do have a few Jekyll and Hyde moments, where you go from perfectly happy to absolutely miserable in the blink of an eye, but I guess mood-swings go hand-in-hand with being 5. Thankfully the happier moods are more frequent…

K – Kitty Cat: You love to pretend to be a kitten, and crawl around on all fours meowing and rubbing your head on us! K is also for Kokino, the Greek word for red, your favourite word. We were playing with some flash cards the other day, and the red card came up to which you said “Kokino!” followed by lots of giggles.

L – Love: We love you more than all the stars in the sky!

M – Make-up: You love to do make-up. Time-hop delivered a classic this morning from 3 years ago, not much has changed since then. I have, however, bought you your own set of brushes since you gave my Mac blusher brush a little haircut with some nail-scissors at round about the same time.



N – Naughty: Yes, you can be somewhat naughty, but its always of the mischievous kind, and never malicious. Some days you test my patience with your strong will, but you always manage to make me laugh and smile.

O – Oranges: You love oranges, orange juice and other orange foods such as carrots.

P – Puppy: You love our puppy Saxon, and he listens to you so nicely, mainly because you always have a stash of Beenos in your pocket!



Q – Quiet: Quiet is not a word that we would use to describe you. You love to horse around with Alex, the louder the better!

R – Rainin’ : You have this peculiar habit of clipping the ends of words that end in “ing”, so “it’s raining today” becomes “it’s rainin’ today”. We have no idea where you got this from.

S – Sing: You love to sing, especially songs that you have made up by yourself. Maybe you will be a famous song-writer one day. I know that whatever it is you choose to do, you will be great!

T – Temper: my mother often tells me that I had a terrible temper as a child, well, I guess the apple never fell far from the tree in this respect. But as you get older, you are learning to keep it in check! (Sometimes)

U – Upside down: You love to be upside down at the moment, and often climb the tree in the driveway to show me how you hang from your knees. In Mauritius recently, you were brave enough to try the trapeze (until you decided, after the 3rd try, that it was too high, but you were happy to do it indoors a little closer to the ground).

upside down

V – Very Cute: That you are my girlie, don’t ever change.

W – Wings: You love to draw creatures with wings, such as butterflies, and usually with a number of cats nearby. W is also for Wedding. Your cousin Stacey got married recently, and it was one of the highlights of your year. You absolutely loved dressing up in a puffy dress and having your hair and make-up done. You loved it so much that you have been planning your own wedding ever since! And you will be marrying Daddy of course.



X – ‘x’s: There are always lots of ‘x’s for kisses in your drawings too. I recently taught you how to do a European kiss, one on each cheek, which you think is absolutely hilarious.

Y – Yam: You’ve never actually tried a yam, but I am sure you would if I knew where to buy one. You have always had adventurous tastes, and are willing to eat most things, even tomatoes, much to your brother’s disgust.

Z – ZZZs: You love to fake sleep, especially in the car, and when I ask you if you are sleeping you respond with plenty of giggles. You really do love to laugh!

My Big girl, don’t ever change, we love you just the way you are. XXX

Me and my girl

Me and my girl



My big boy!

I will admit to having a little cry on the way to work after I dropped you at school this morning, my mind still boggling at how my baby boy is already seven! Still euphoric after a great party, you were excitedly greeted by the friends that joined us yesterday to celebrate. We invited a small group of special friends to the bird gardens, and it was such a pleasure seeing you have such an awesome time. You and your friends ran around freely, enjoying the birds and other creatures on display, pure joy emanating from your hearts and your faces! Half the time I didn’t even know where you were, testament to the fact that you are a big boy now, and don’t need us to watch you all the time.

2 alex

The change in you in the year between turning six and turning seven has been huge. You have grown taller and more solid, and your face has lost all remnants of toddlerhood! You have become so responsible, more assertive, and happier in your own skin. You are still, however, a bit of a day-dreamer, disappearing into your own little world every now and then, oblivious to the goings-on around you. You have learnt to read and do sums, and can finally tie your shoe laces by yourself.

3 alex

You are a gentle and kind child, and always care about other people’s feelings. We are so proud of you my boy. Your reading and writing is excellent, and you love to read aloud to your sister (especially “Cuddle Bear”.) I love receiving little letters from you that say things like “I love you mom, you are the best mom”. And you even write love letters to the dogs…

4 letter

You love animals, and enjoy telling us facts about various creatures such as the birds in your birdie book, and the reptiles that you love so much. Your favourite thing at school is “show and tell” day, where you get to talk about all the things that you love (mainly various animals)! You love to swim, and can literally spend hours in the pool, immersed in your own imagination as you dive under the cool water. You love our new puppy, Saxon, and I just know that the two of you will be life-long friends.

5. alex and bird

It’s so bittersweet watching you grow up my boy; becoming your mom has changed me so profoundly. I cannot imagine not having you near me. If I compare your first day of grade one to today, I cannot believe it’s the same child. The thought of you not needing me as much frightens the life out of me as I witness your growing independence.

1 us

I am so blessed to be your mom, and I love you more than all the stars in the sky.

Stay as sweet as you are, my big boy, you will always be my baby.




To my dear Alex
This post is a little bit late, as you have been five for all of 5 days already. Which just goes to show how busy life is at the moment, and how quickly time just melts away.

You joined this world on Sunday the 21st of September 2008, at 5 to midnight, determined to be born on your grand-father’s birthday. (Your C-section was scheduled for the 23rd) And what is quite interesting, is that Grand-pa was born on his Grandmother’s birthday … making the 21st of September a rather popular day in our family!

It is a day that I will never forget, and in fact I will cherish it forever …. It was the day that I became a mother for the first time, and learned what unconditional love really is.


I am so proud of you my boy, and watching you grow up is bitter-sweet. While I love the fact that you are gaining more knowledge and independence by the day, my heart aches for the tiny new-born nuzzled against my chest that seems to have disappeared in the blink of an eye.

Yesterday, Dad and I went to Ballito for the day to look at the new house, and we left you and Caris with Promise for the day. When we got home, it was late and you were already in bed. I asked Promise if all was ok, and she said yes, but that Caris wanted her to sing a lullaby before you both went to sleep. Promise didn’t know the lullaby that Daddy sings to you guys every night, so she told us that you sang the lullaby for Caris. (Sleep, Sleep tonight, And may your dreams, Be realized … by U2). My sweet boy, this just epitomises what a beautiful soul you have, and what an amazing little boy you have become.


I love you to the stars and beyond, and I am so truly blessed to have you in my life.

Love you always xx MOM

Two …

Today my baby girl is two years and two weeks old. So yes, this post is somewhat late, but mainly due to the fact that we were basking in the beautiful sunshine alongside the Indian Ocean in Mauritius over her birthday. (More on that in another post)

And my writing mojo still seems to be mainly M.I.A.

It is probably somewhat of a cliché to say that the last two years have flown by, but they really have. Perhaps it is the frenetic pace at which life seems to just happen these days, or maybe it’s because I am getting older, but it seems like just the other day that we brought Caris home from the hospital looking so tiny in her car seat.

I remember it being so much easier the second time around. I had no feelings of panic or worry that I didn’t know how to take care of a baby, as I had done it before. I knew what to expect with the spinal block and the C-section, and I went home after only two nights as I had done it all before. I did not need the nurses to show me how to breastfeed, change a nappy or bath a newborn. And Caris certainly seemed to pick up on my tranquil state of mind, as she was calm and content. I was not a first time mother after all and Caris was perfectly happy as long as she was snuggled against me. And I was perfectly happy to have her snuggled against me.

And I still am. (Although those opportunities have become somewhat rare in line with her budding independence!)

My little girl is a bundle of giggles and smiles and absolute cuteness. She absolutely loves to giggle! She also loves to make people laugh, and she often does silly things like pulling a face or crinkling her nose to make us laugh, and when we do, she chuckles along; pleased as punch. She fits in with everything that we do, like she was always there. She loves to copy everything that Alex does, and in true second child fashion has major Fear-of-Missing-Out if her big brother is doing something that she is too little to do!

Looking back at the photos of her first birthday, I can’t believe how, in the blink of an eye, I now see an independent little girl with a strong will and a fiery temper. (On the flip side of all the cuteness, the terrible twos have also struck with a vengeance! But more on that in another post). I also look back over the past two years with some sadness, as it all seems to be happening too fast, and I just want to savour every moment of her littleness.

Caris, my sweet girl, I hope you know how much you are loved by me and everyone around you. You delight us all with your infectious laugh and your delicious cuddles. Happy birthday my baby, I love you so, so much.


Caris Beach Birthday girl

me and my girl